i kinda like him, maybe i really like him, maybe i'm not honest.

why: because he never try to control me. He always there for helping, till now. Never ever judging me. Listening, comforting, accompany, helping find solution, pull me out, thats what he always do, till now.
what: i feel something this moment. Dont know what it is or will it survive. just dont care.
i feel comfortable, but pray, if i was too blinded, please, lord, open my eyes.
How: Meditating upon trusting the Lord and one's spouse several times daily decreases fears, etc. Thats the key, that's the answer.